Benjamin had a pretty good day. We finally made it to 15mls/hour. It seemed unattainable last week, so I am so thankful that he is tolerating it. We were supposed to attempt bottle feeding today, but that didn't happen again. I am so frustrated right now. The doctor is really pushing to bottle feed, but no one wants to do it. The feeding specialist was supposed to do it around 5pm, but I had to go home. Jon got there tonight and it wasn't done. I just don't know what to do. The nurses feel like they don't want to push him because he's not going home next week and we have time. I just don't know what to do. I feel like I'm going to have to just do it myself...which is terrifying. I feel like if I don't no one will. Anyways, Benjamin had his eyes tested again and the doctor was very happy with how his eyes were doing. She doesn't need to see him again, we just have to take him in when he's 6mths old. So that's great news. Benjamin is having a lot more awake time lately. This afternoon he laid in his bed for over an hour just watching his mobile and looking around. Its nice to see him awake and happy. I worry that he's fussing and the nurses are to busy to calm him. He also has been looking for his thumb or fingers to suck on instead of his soother. I'd be happy if he started that because he wouldn't need a nurse to put his soother in all the time. Thigns are still moving in the right direction. I'm so incredibly thankful for that. I just pray that it continues.